This morning I watched God work out a miracle. I will do my best to share some of it here. I have talked about how amazing it is to have a voice that others can hear through my music, poetry and written words. God worked it all together this morning into something so beautiful that it made grown men and women cry. I wasn’t expecting my heart to feel so full of joy but it feels so full I could run around and sing!! Since I can’t do that in my body I will try and do it with my words.
The director of Teen Challenge heard some of my story and words that were shared at our church a few weeks ago when a visiting pastor used some of my blog and story to share his message. Steve thought that my story and words would inspire the students at Teen Challenge and asked me if I could be a chapel speaker. He gave me so much freedom to share whatever God gave to me. He didn’t direct my words or even suggest much, so I was given a lot of freedom to listen and pray and share my story.
I spent a few hours one day after I had prayed and wrote most of the message. I added some more to it over the next couple of weeks. I asked Gregg and Mom to help me make sure it was as clear as possible, but we didn’t change much of it. Today Gregg started the talk with his inspiring words and prayer and after we played the song that I love by Matthew West called, “The Story of Your Life”, my TV interview was shown. It’s a good way to introduce me because Maury Glover did a great job on my interview. Then my Mom went on the stage and read my words into the microphone to about 300 people. I sat in the front row with some dear friends who came to witness this wonderful event. Amy and I chatted on my keyboard and I felt so close to God. I watched how He changed hearts in that room.
I heard the crying and the encouragement and the tears mixed with laughter. I saw how God could use a silent young woman, unable to even care for herself, to change the hearts of people. I give God an A for this message!!!!! I thought it would be helpful to others, but the miracle for me was all the kindness and love and hope and encouragement that came to us afterward. People who felt discouraged were encouraged to keep pushing and trying and believing and dreaming with God. God knows who we are. We are no surprise to Him. Even our darkest thoughts are not hidden and we don’t have to worry that God would be surprised by us. God has dreams for every person. Those dreams are the truth, not what happens to us that causes us so much pain and disillusionment. If I only listened to what has been thought about me because of the diagnosis of Rett Syndrome, I would not have dreamed for a bigger life. But the one that God is working on for me is so much fuller and wiser and richer and more beautiful than anything my Mom or Gregg or I could have imagined. The tears I heard and saw and the stories shared with us today came from the hearts of very hurt people. Beautiful people. People that I hope never forget the miracle that God has worked out for me by giving me a voice that others can hear through His songs and His words. I hope I never forget how pleased I am in the this moment to be alive and working together with God to be His helper. I feel so blessed beyond words.